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Right after the classes resumed after the break, everything went back to normal again. Since the first week of the second semester, we were bombarded with a lot of activities, exercises, homeworks, pop quizzes, deadline-pressured projects, and the like that’s why I look stress-loaded and super problematic now. Our teachers feel like their subject is our only priority because they all give us projects at the same time and to  be passed at the same deadline. Now tell me how could I possibly do all 10 projects at 4 nights allowance?…hello? They just don’t know how many sleepless nights were spent and will be spent because of their demands, yet they were not able to satisfy us with the grades they’ve given us. I know that all of those hardships are part of the training and Iearning process but they’re really too much!!! I do have a lot of dilemmas that are cluttering my mind that’s why I super feel the need of a vacation and thank God I’m having one (hihihihi…***).

I will not mind about school anymore when I’ll leave because it will just ruin my vacation and besides, I’m no longer qualified for the top 10 so I guess I don’t have to worry a lot about it. I hope that this little getaway will give me fun, peace of mind and less worries because these mainly are the reasons why I’m leaving school for a short while even though I know my grades will be at stake.

Before we left school for the break, we had our last meeting with our teacher in accounting before the semester officially ended. We were asked to write our personal opinions about a quotation by Keaton and then on the second paragraph- our business plans for the break most especially this halloween.  Our teacher suggested that it’s good to make business this sembreak for us to be productive people instead of being couch potatoes and sluggards doin’ nothing. I realized that ma’am has the point and a flick of enthusiasm hit my mind. I kept on thinking what kind of business I would like to establish. I thought for a while and a sudden flash of insight striked me- Eureka!. I thought of using some ideas from our feasibility study and then just yesterday, I started my business with the help of some friends and fortunately it was a hit! (laughs…)

The trend of my small business is homebased because it’s also the type of trend I’m very much in lined with. Apart from that, the asset size is within my reach and the risks are also moderate. It was really fun and the earned profit was prolific- twice the asset size. At first, I’m only planning to have it as a weeklong leisure but if the reports would be good, then maybe I would continue it with the help of some trustworthy friends even if I’m far away from home. I would also ask them to keep records as well.

I’m very much thankful to have met this brilliant guru beacause she really is the most motivitating and perspicacious teacher I’ve ever known who kept the fire burning within me to excel and pursue my vision. I’m also grateful for everything that I’ve learned within the four-corners of our classroom most especially in recording, bookkeeping, and the feasibility study that we did because it really helped me with my new endeavor.

Unlike my previous “idle” breaks, this really is my first gainful and fruitful semestral vacation that makes it extraordinary above all ever!

As I was organizing my cluttered drawer full of old school stuffs just this morning, I happened to have found my long lost diary wherein I used to write my deepest and sometimes mawkish thoughts when I was in fifth grade- about 5 years ago. Feeling thrilled and evoked, I sat for a while and began leafing through the pages of my old diary and tried recollecting what happened in every single page that I wrote way back those days. 

I really can’t believe that I wrote such memories myself. I never thought that those moments I wrote over my diary were superbly absurd and drippy. Maybe I was just too young back then to realize that those were too lame. I can’t help myself laughing because it was really really corny and I felt so awfull for having those things remembered. I also felt embarrassed and annoyed of myself for puting those into writing because those thoughts of mine were silly and too much assuming about my elementary crushes-ewww. Even though those were kind’a mawkish, but okay I admit-  those were sweet and innocent.

Inspite of the melodramatic contents of my previous journal, I am still happy to have read my thoughts again for it brought back some sweet memories that made me laugh foolishly and giggle like what I always use to do whenever I feel excited and ludicriously ecstatic about a person I like and admire.  I also felt nostalgic about everything that had happened in the past which made me realize that even though my business is already over in that particular era of my life, I still have to look back once in a while and remember those memories that had happened to me which made up the whole existing me.

Since I’ve got nothing to do tonight, I would like to spend my time pouring out thoughts again about life, more particularly about my senior life. Well I’m just tired of all the pressures and the fusses and everything that I badly needed a break to be able to rejuvinate myself again.

Honestly speaking, I can say that being a senior truly means a lot of hardships, struggles, both physical and mental distress, tons of responsibilities, and time constraints. It’s really mountaineering that sometimes I feel that I can no longer make it to the top and it also feels like I’m too vulnerable to fall into the crevasse of mistakes. Sometimes, I end up getting depressed due to some unfavorable circumstances that I never did expect to come my way which dramatically tore my heart into pieces of despair.

I really loathe failures but I seem to be a failure myself. Actually, I am myself’s worst critic and I do exaggerate a lot that I end up hurting myself and letting wonderful opportunities slip off my fingers.  Everytime I long for something and work hard for it, I seem to either achieve none or receive trivial or mediocre awards not enough for me to make myself believe that I truly have the potential and that I truly posses what it takes to be a promising person that the future needs. Basically this adds to my dilemma which continuously piles up until I can no longer carry the burden alone anymore.

 I always fail people who are counting a lot on me. Oftentimes, I am not able to meet their expectations which makes me feel guilty and makes me lack self-worth. I think I’ve got no talent at all. Nobody believes in my capabalities except for my family but at least that’s enough consolation for me to feel good about myself somehow.

I live an awe-inspired  life at the moment and I really hate it because it only makes me feel down which makes me belittle myself more and more as each day passes. Oftentimes I find myself dreaming of escaping high school and just go straight ahead to college without completely knowing what really lies ahead. I want to escape basically because I don’t like the environment anymore. Swear it’s really really sordid that I can’t take it any longer. It’s just too much for me to bear and I still have to wait for 6 long months of suffering for me to exit the portals of my school. I wonder why most people say that high school is the most wonderful stage in life when I find it very depressing. I know it is but normal to be in the state of depression and confusion sometimes but what can I do? I’m just emotionaly weak and unstable. I’m still wandering at the jungles of life’s uncertainty that’s why I’m still vulnerable to be lost anytime. Well, I guess I just have to be vigilant all the time.

And so that’s all folks. I know that nobody would read this nonsense but this piece of crap surely helped me release and ease some of the stress, tensions and pressures that I’ve been feeling for a long time now that absolutely has to be released before I find myself breakdown and cry in awe- that would be xoxo pathetic, yikeess!

xOxOxOxOmoi…=)

OVERVIEW: “t’was a mixture of fun,  adventure, independence, and  a surprising revelation that I’ve never expected to be unraveled in an unexpected time and manner had made its way to be known…”

 We left for Tacloban at 1pm in the afternoon last friday and arrived there at 5pm. Our first stop was at the Divine Word (it’s a school). Actually, I didn’t know what we were doing there. All I know was we were only following Chaelle’s mom for she kindly presented herself to accompany us at the convent where we expected to stay for the night out of  Sr. Isabel’s suggestion. She is my classmate’s aunt, who happens to be a Benedictine nun that’s why we thought we were to stay at a convent. She is currently teaching at St. Scho that’s why we rode a tricycle upon going there to meet her. She said that we are to stay at the Bahay Kubo inside the school premises. Well, we already expected some inconveniences ahead because as what the name “Bahay Kubo” suggests, we know already what to anticipate right?

On our great surprise, it turned out to be the complete opposite of what we had expected. It was actually a guesthouse intended for guest speakers, supervisors, and other important visitors of the school. It’s a well-furnished and cozy native house good for 3 persons. It has a cute parlour and  a dining area with a big cupboard complete with dining materials and other kitchen necessities, a refrigerator and an electric fan. Our room has 3 snug beds, a T.V and an airconditioner with a personal bathroom complete with toiletries. 2 closets with hangers, and underneath the T.V is a cabinet containing 2 additional pillows, pillow cases, towels, and blankets. We were like stunned because we were really overjoyed to know that aside from the convenience, our accomodation was totally all for free and we were also thrilled to know that we were to live in a cozy home by ourselves and act like independent grown-ups living in a real world on our own.

Right after Sister Isabel left us, we went straight downtown to take out our dinner and buy some chips at the supermarket to be nibbled at night and our needs for tomorrow’s test as well. Right after dinner we took our evening baths and dressed ourselves up for sleep and watched T.V even if we were told to sleep early. True to Sr. Isabel’s word, she returned with 2 other nuns to visit us which turned out to be some kind of an interview. I really liked the way we were treated by them. They were so kind and we really felt most welcome. They really inspired me to become one of them, seriously. We decided to sleep early which absolutely is not according to plan since we were ashamed to disobey them and so we slept early.

The alarm clock read 4 AM and nobody went to the C.R since we were still sleepy that time. When I woke up, the clock read quarter to 5 so I took the shower first and swear it was really chilly but it was so refreshing. After all of us had dressed up for the test about 6AM, we spent our time waiting by watching a horror film. By 6:30 sharp, our breakfast was served and by 7AM we left for Holy Infant College where we were about to take the test. Sr. Isabel accompanied us again and shocks it was really nerve-shaking when we saw the other examinees.

A few examinees are just regular juans like me but most of the others had good-looking faces who undeniably came from the upper class and I never expected that he would be one of them. Well, I had a hunch or some little imagination that we were going to meet there but I didn’t know that I would discover something horrible enough to tear me apart.

 And that worst thing that I’ve discovered was: ” He’s GAY… totally, absolutely, and terribly a certified faggot!” 

     I tried not to believe that that guy was really him but as I tried to examine his appearance, I came to realize that no matter how hard I try not to believe on what I was seeing, it was undoubtly Him. Though there were some physical differences but the extraordinary similarities couldn’t just be plain coincidences. Who would ever believe that a man who acted virile would be gay? I was really distracted but honestly speaking, I pretty much lose all hopes I had in heart. It was an unexpected and shocking revelation, isn’t it? Life is indeed a topsy-turvy game. You’ll never know when it will play games with you and you’ll never know what great surprises it has instored for you to be revealed in either the most perfect or worst timing of your life. Life is just so unfair sometimes.

About the test, it was less difficult compared  to UPCAT. I was able to review and answer some questions which I’ve left behind. At that time at last, the reviewers were of great help. I thought that they would never be useful anymore after the brain-racking UPCAT since those were not able to help us during that test. The atmosphere was much better and was way nicer. I still can’t forget what I brought with me during the test-a mineral water and an oreo. I don’t know why it left an unforgetable memory in me. Maybe I’m just too sentimental about everything. I really hated our male proctor because he cut half the time to the actual time alloted for each test which added to the pressure. There was also an essay writing in the english proficiency test that I actually did not  expect to be part of the exam but thank God I was able to handle it. I used some thoughts from my article for the school paper plus some quotes from the recent book that I have just read from Paulo Coelho which proved to be a great help to me in that essay test.

Whether I would pass the exam or not (I’m having this feeling that I can’t make it), it would still be okay for me because it was a priceless experience that I would always carry along with me for the rest of my life. Though it would be humiliating for me and my ego if I would fail, I know that God knows what’s best for me so may His will be done and hopefully, I would abide with His decision even if it would be against my will or not.

Last September 6-7 (Last Saturday and Sunday), we had our kasangga retreat held at INHS Inopacan Leyte. Actually, I arrived there a little late already since last saturday was also our Intramurals closing ceremony so I did exit the programme as early as I could so that I will be able to catch up with the retreat earlier as possible. The travel time from my school to Inopacan is two and a half-hours so it was really inevitable for me to be late. But anyway praise God because I arrived there safe and sound though it was raining hard that time but no problem again since I’ve got an umbrella with me.

At first, I was kind’a scared to attend the retreat because I was going there all by myself since all the rest of my company were already there at the venue. Well I was left with no choice so I really have to venture out on my own in that place wherein I’m not so familiar with. I even got lost that’s why my fare was doubled. When I finally found the place that I was looking for, I was so shocked to see the path leading to the school atop is very steep and take note, it was raining hard that time so the pathway was slippery. I even choked the hell out of me for I didn’t expect that the school is located on a hill.

When I reached the school, I took all the bashfulness I felt deep within me and went bravely inside. Fortunately, I saw tita Hera on her office and she led me to the room where all the others were. It was all different than what I already had in mind. The venue, the people, and everything had pretty much disappointed me for they were a total opposite of what I had anticipated but t’was still okay. I was able to meet new friends there, got closer with some old faces I already knew but not that close with them before, eat slight than usual, jam to the max, worshiped God, and learned some from our speakers’ talks.

 As expected, the fuss and the husle  are to be experienced. The place was really cold and blankets were just not enough to keep our bodies warm. We were all shivering like chickens the following morning due to the freezing temperature. It was still raining cats and dogs yesterday (Sunday) morning but it didn’t stop us to enjoy, listen, and absorb what the speakers are talking about. Afterall, the talks were substantial and conducive for everyone of us to be better leaders of the youth and in the community where we belong. The event was one hell of a gregarious one but still not forgetting the need to balance its spiritual counterpart. Actually, this retreat was meant for the leaders but the members were also welcomed to join. Infact, I thought I was just a mere member that’s why I felt unworthy to come but if it wasn’t for that retreat, I would have not known that I’m the household head of our community. I realized that it was not just an accident why I was able to attend the Kasannga but it was God’s will in the first place that enabled me to be there for He wanted me to be aware of what He desired me to do and for me to realize my responsiblity of serving Him. It was an eye opener for me to comprehend my purpose in joining Youth For Christ. Absolutely not just for fun, for meeting new people, for socialization, for exposure, and for adventure but for having a sense of accountability of either the mislead or guided youth for each and everyone of us is our brother’s keeper. The fun and the wacky adventures that I or we experience as Youth for Christs are just bonuses from God for us to feel that eventhough we are serving Him, He still sees to it that we are still able to enjoy what it means to be young. Though there were many roadblocks and potholes along the way, I have definitely no regrets for through those trials I was able to define what happiness and being a pure-blooded leader truly means. Well, I would be pleased in applying those that I’ve learned as soon as possible for His greater honor and glory.

 On the flipped side of the coin which is my other purpose in going there, I really don’t know what to say. Afterall, I’ve realized how much a fool I have become and how much stupid I am to believe all those signs. How much I’ve anticipated and how much I’ve prepared. How badly depressed I am right now and how much I have been deceived by my own self. Well, I’m here back to the basics. Back to being less enthusiastic, less motivated, less inspired, less optimistic about love, less self esteem, and less secured. As a whole, he made a hell of a less in me. But anyway, it’s still okay. At least I’ve learned now my lesson and I promise not to repeat the same mistake all over again. For being too much assuming and hopeful of the impossible. But can I be blamed when all that I did was believe from all the signs that I had asked from the heavens that all of a sudden had worked ?  Was I too hopeful and too idealistic? From now on, I will never, ever believe in signs again because I myself, have proved it to be just a hoax and a crap. It did trick me for quite some time and made me believe into things that are more of a fantasy whatever. I learned my lesson and I will always bear that in mind. The next time I’ll see him around, I will try to come to my senses whenever I feel like hooked up again into the foolishness of my wild imagination. Well I don’t even think that I’m going to see him again but now, I just don’t care because I had already lost pretty much of my interest on him. I know it’s not just a simple coincidence that I was able to be there inspite of my tight schedule but if there is something positive that is going around, he’s supposed to be there but he didn’t. Maybe, he’s not just worthy at all.  But anyway I’m getting the point, this might be God’s way of telling me to wake up for he is not the right person for me. But if he really is not, then why did he permit all of those signs to work? Well, I don’t also know the answer to my own question but I know that in time, I’ll fully understand what He really intended to do with my life.

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted a blog on my account. Well, about 2 months now to be exact..I really miss those times wherein all that I have to do is to write and write all those important, special, and a li’l bit of both embarassing and painful happenings that had happened to me wayback those days as long as I please in order for me to express what I really feel through writing…Whaaahh… I really miss summer ‘08 so badly because it offered me so much fun and a handful of best experiences for application. Though it jolted me out of my comfort zone, I just can’t explain why it was the best of all!!! Wayback last summer, I was able to go through wild experiences and in some ways, gained some degree of independence which I’ve enjoyed a lot..super!!! I’ve joined a lot of youth camps and enjoyed each one of them to the max. I’ve met new circle of friends and I have finally found some inspiration somewhere on one of the youthcamps that I’ve attended ______ that keeps on inspiring me up to this day but actually, we’re not friends (laughs*)…but I’m still hoping that the fulfillment of the signs I’m asking from God might be the one that I’m really hoping…(giggles*)…but I’m not assuming of something to happen because I’m really scared of false hopes…(mahirap nah!!!)

Since I’ve got nothing to do today, I’ve decided to spend my time pouring out those events that had somehow made my days fantastic and a li’l bit exotic…

Since I’m now in my senior year in high school, tons of schoolwork, reviews, and pressure are inevitable but I’ve already expected all of these to come beforehand.  Actually I’ve never had enough sleep since the first day of class which makes my eye bugs quite visible…Responsibilities never stop coming in which make it hard for me to handle my schedule and I thought I felt crazy because of overlapping responsiblities and time conflicts. Oftentimes, I’ve got three meetings at same schedules at different places that’s why I am usually seen running through the corridors to catch up with the other meetings. I also got a handful of articles to be edited and others on it’s way through. It’s really tiring but I’m trying to do my best to be able to handle my responsibilities well. No matter how tough the situations are, I’ve accepted all of these challenges as a part of growing up, that as time passes by one must go through the hard times, and later on, the harder ones.

Well, I’ve also noticed that schoolworks narrow my time for me to enjoy and spend time with my family and friends unlike the old times. Things now are becoming more serious and I have to be serious in dealing with these stuffs as well because my future is the one that is at stake now. Decision-making gets more confusing and it feels like my head is going to crack open because of too much preoccupation of what is to come.

As of now, all I want is to unwind my inhibitions and to indulge in a superb relaxation that the world can offer. But inspite of the stress, the pressure, and schoolworks, it’s still fun to be in school. I can’t explain why but all I can say is I just love being in school and I love being young…

I just simply love it…=)

Actually, the event is not yet over but most of us (YFCs) decided not to finish the whole affair due to some reasons…mostly school-related reasons…People from all walks of life have come together in Ambrose Village to build houses for homeless families…well it’s a 3-day challenge and all of us have worked hand-in-hand to meet the deadline… I can see the determination, the perseverance, and the passion to serve the least of our brethren in the eyes of countless workers whom I consider as heroes for what they are doing is a heroic act… Currently, I think that they are still working on it and I wish them success… They never stopped working despite of the scorching heat of the sun and buckets of sweat…It really touched me…wow!!!

Well… I thought I’ll never see him again but I did… I can really feel giggles deep within me…(sweet)…swear!!!…But I can no longer feel the passion when I look at him but I can  still say that I have "stable" feelings for him…I think this is the fruit of all the signs that worked… but I can’t say anything positive right now… just stable… Actually I’m still confused about what I’m talking here…not quite sure with everything that I’m saying… am just a li’l worried about him now due to unfavorable circumstances that happened that time…and I was standing in front of him…(Can’t tell… basin mabuking..ahahaha)…I was kind’a affected u know…  but I still remember the last line that I wrote on my previous blog…" If there is something positive that is going to happen… maybe destiny will allow a second rendezvous  for us to meet"… quite pondering huh?…is this somehow related with our second meeting?… I don’t also know…

I’m not still sure about what I’m talking about and I don’t want to take any chances out of too much expectation…oh, another thing… after that incident, the signs no longer work… I don’t know but the only thing that popped out on my mind everytime I think about it is "Stable"… and every now and then, my mind is in its blank state…very funny…=[

Last may 23-25 was another jam-packed and fun-filled get together for us youth, from all over the province of Leyte in Dulag… It was actually my first time to step foot in that place…Familiar countenances, both old and new acquaintances, and some quite _^^striking^^_ FACEs ( HERSHEY!!!) welcomed me in the venue… We travelled through there by means of a dumptruck…though the sun was really burning our skins out, the ride was a lot merrier naman… Inconveniences are always inevitable and are almost immortal in every camp like this but it didn’t hinder us naman to indulge and succumb in the never ceasing fun, friendship, and excitement during the event… (sanay na kame!!!…hehehe). I met a lot of friends and old acquaintances there and at the same time, created bonds of friendship with some of them… I actually had no part or event except for the _^^ Moral Support Team^^_ as usual… Well, the talks were staggeringly great and has touched me deep within… I appreciated the 100% pure forum most and for me, it’s the most interesting part among the 4 talks or sessions rather. I do salute those sharers for being brave enough to stand and share in front of 350 young people listening to their shattered pasts just for us, the youth to be aware of the devastating consequences that lie ahead out of curiousity… The nights were filled with tons of laughter, a lot of music, and talents start stripping off their shells. We tried to catch sleep even for just 5 or 4 hours since the night usually ends at 1am or 2 in the morning and we have to wake up at 4 or 5 am… Inspite of our enjoyment, there are still people who are trying hard to be recognized even if it means rising our temperature’s up… I was deeply irritated by a group of boys who were boisterously laughing at our back, one of them tried to stand closely beside me and it really annoyed me much… so we just walked out and they kept on following us so I raised a brow… they never stopped annoying us untill the following morning (nearly dawn), we we’re about to take a bath and they followed us, I really wanted to spank him but I tried to keep my cool and so for goodness sake, even if it feels like swallowing my pride, I did let him shakehands with me…but after that, no more…thank God!…

On my first encounter with hershey (codename)…the inspiration that I’ve been talking about lately… really left an inexplicable feeling that is worth remembering for me… I can’t say I’m in love because I know I’m not but I can say that I am deeply infatuated by him…. I know this feeling is just temporary passion… An intense but short-lived and irrational passion for him… I know that sooner or later this feeling will subside…but as of now, I want to live under his spell because it gives me the feeling of being alive and makes my heart skip a beat which makes my life more exciting and memories touching than ever… I can still remember his face and the way he moves… I can still remember those instances where our eyes met, and chances when we sat facing each other… I was really shaking inside but I tried to keep my cool… Of course I don’t want him to know what I feel… Sometimes, I can tell something positive but I tried to hold on to the limits and live still in reality because I don’t want to expect a lot from a win-win situation because I’m afraid that in the end, I am the one who’s gonna get hurt out of too much expectation. Sometimes man gud, I feel that ma misconceptualize naq ang usa ka sich wherein both of us are involved like for ex. magkita mi or when our eyes meet… basin ug nag anticipate ra ko ug something since I’m too carried away by a lot of emotions that in reality diay… it’s just normal… but in some ways makaingun ko ug naa’y positive gamai… pero I don’t want to take chances… sakit man gud…awt…hehehe

For me, he’s a total package and he’s got what I’m looking for a man… Multitalented, he’s got the brains and the looks… the bank too I suppose and he’s very athletic… Mapansin kaha ko ato noh?…of course not man siguro… I tried to be pessimistic as I could be just to avoid being madly infatuated…I know we’re not meant to be in the very beggining… but at least, even once in a while, he made my resting heart beat at last which makes me feel alive untill now… Well who knows… if we are really meant, destiny will find a way for a second rendezvous no matter what right?… I hope so… but if he really is not Mr. Right… then I guess God has instored another one who is a lot better and more compatible than I ever thought… I guess I’ve unloaded a lot drama here… senxa na po…I’m apt to be emotional man gud… On the day of our departure, it’s unavoidable to be sad… am gonna miss some of my friends… most esp. hershey…whaaatt???..hehehe… am gonna miss the fun because school’s back again… grrr… Another thing, I hate the signs coz it’s working… wahahaha…I dont want to expect much of the impossible…

Nweiz…yehey… the next PYC will be in Inopacan… duol na lang… ahahaha… and am really looking forward to attend another spectacular get together again… and maybe, to see him the second time around…ahehehe…=]

We just recently had our 14th sectoral assembly ( south sector B) last may 2-3, 2008 at Bato National High School in Bato, Leyte. I already anticipated new faces, challenges and experiences…yeah!!!…

The scorching heat of the sun and some unfavorable conditions didn’t stop us from getting there…woohoohooh!!!…It was a remarkable event indeed for all of us I suppose because it was a fun-filled and jam-packed day naman…It really made me feel that it’s soo good to be _^^young^^_ because for me, being young means  having a lot of enthusiasm and wild adventures… the energy never ceases and smiles would never turn out as frowns inspite of trials…I learned a lot of teachings that nourished my soul and hardships that made me strong and mature enough to handle responsiblilities step by step…I met a lot of people and made friends with them… I’ll never forget the day that I participated in the essay writing event. That was last May 2, friday, 2:30 pm…( drama na naman ito!)… During that time, I really tried to control my fears and calm down because actually, I was totally shaking inside since I was not prepared. I only relied on stocked knowledge and my fake confidence…hehehe. I was really doubting that time and I’m sooo afraid because I’m soo scared to fail my delegation who were counting on me…(naxxz naman…), but just to be clear, I’m really really afraid of failures… I really prayed and concentrated further. These are the only options I know…The following day I was really anxious to hear the results and damn I shouted and jumped like crazy out of extreme joy when I heard my delegation won…yeah yeah yeah!!!…warm congratulations fired me up inspite of the freezing and hostile rain…and I do lift up my success to Him… I’ll never forget those times when we slept at the lobbies of the school, those non-functioning bathrooms, the scarcity of water, muddy pathways and the early wake-up call…hehehe and it really jolted all of us from our comfort zones but I consider those as blessings man pud that’s why I really feel so blest…Very exhausting but what can I do, I really love challenges…jowk…but partly true… I’ll never forget when we praised the Lord in the falling rain. It was very solemn and sentimental…but during the awarding…hahahaiii… nagkiat na mi’ng tanan…I’ll really miss the sinangag ( fried rice) and sweetened bulinao…(am I ryt?) that we had for breakfast…hahaha… first time to eat those but it left an unforgetable and lasting sensation on my tastebuds…wat?… basta am gonna try it at home… All of us left the venue totally soaked up with rain water… and to be honest, perting tugnawa jud kaau to pero sige sige lang, padayun lang ang sablig2…hehehe… Another thing, I was just wondering why the rain never stopped pouring in that day…maybe that was a blessing from God… I’m still pondering at the concealed message out of that rainy event… maybe I can figure it out one day… I don’t know…

Even if I already knew the discomforts that lie ahead in every conference… I would be 100.1% willing to attend because I don’t know…Maybe the fact that I know that I can learn and experience something new for my goodness sake and for some other personal reasons that I can’t share with you…u know nah…di bitaw…jowk ra to ha?…hehehe

I really hope to see u guyszz there next time…=]