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Last may 23-25 was another jam-packed and fun-filled get together for us youth, from all over the province of Leyte in Dulag… It was actually my first time to step foot in that place…Familiar countenances, both old and new acquaintances, and some quite _^^striking^^_ FACEs ( HERSHEY!!!) welcomed me in the venue… We travelled through there by means of a dumptruck…though the sun was really burning our skins out, the ride was a lot merrier naman… Inconveniences are always inevitable and are almost immortal in every camp like this but it didn’t hinder us naman to indulge and succumb in the never ceasing fun, friendship, and excitement during the event… (sanay na kame!!!…hehehe). I met a lot of friends and old acquaintances there and at the same time, created bonds of friendship with some of them… I actually had no part or event except for the _^^ Moral Support Team^^_ as usual… Well, the talks were staggeringly great and has touched me deep within… I appreciated the 100% pure forum most and for me, it’s the most interesting part among the 4 talks or sessions rather. I do salute those sharers for being brave enough to stand and share in front of 350 young people listening to their shattered pasts just for us, the youth to be aware of the devastating consequences that lie ahead out of curiousity… The nights were filled with tons of laughter, a lot of music, and talents start stripping off their shells. We tried to catch sleep even for just 5 or 4 hours since the night usually ends at 1am or 2 in the morning and we have to wake up at 4 or 5 am… Inspite of our enjoyment, there are still people who are trying hard to be recognized even if it means rising our temperature’s up… I was deeply irritated by a group of boys who were boisterously laughing at our back, one of them tried to stand closely beside me and it really annoyed me much… so we just walked out and they kept on following us so I raised a brow… they never stopped annoying us untill the following morning (nearly dawn), we we’re about to take a bath and they followed us, I really wanted to spank him but I tried to keep my cool and so for goodness sake, even if it feels like swallowing my pride, I did let him shakehands with me…but after that, no more…thank God!…

On my first encounter with hershey (codename)…the inspiration that I’ve been talking about lately… really left an inexplicable feeling that is worth remembering for me… I can’t say I’m in love because I know I’m not but I can say that I am deeply infatuated by him…. I know this feeling is just temporary passion… An intense but short-lived and irrational passion for him… I know that sooner or later this feeling will subside…but as of now, I want to live under his spell because it gives me the feeling of being alive and makes my heart skip a beat which makes my life more exciting and memories touching than ever… I can still remember his face and the way he moves… I can still remember those instances where our eyes met, and chances when we sat facing each other… I was really shaking inside but I tried to keep my cool… Of course I don’t want him to know what I feel… Sometimes, I can tell something positive but I tried to hold on to the limits and live still in reality because I don’t want to expect a lot from a win-win situation because I’m afraid that in the end, I am the one who’s gonna get hurt out of too much expectation. Sometimes man gud, I feel that ma misconceptualize naq ang usa ka sich wherein both of us are involved like for ex. magkita mi or when our eyes meet… basin ug nag anticipate ra ko ug something since I’m too carried away by a lot of emotions that in reality diay… it’s just normal… but in some ways makaingun ko ug naa’y positive gamai… pero I don’t want to take chances… sakit man gud…awt…hehehe

For me, he’s a total package and he’s got what I’m looking for a man… Multitalented, he’s got the brains and the looks… the bank too I suppose and he’s very athletic… Mapansin kaha ko ato noh?…of course not man siguro… I tried to be pessimistic as I could be just to avoid being madly infatuated…I know we’re not meant to be in the very beggining… but at least, even once in a while, he made my resting heart beat at last which makes me feel alive untill now… Well who knows… if we are really meant, destiny will find a way for a second rendezvous no matter what right?… I hope so… but if he really is not Mr. Right… then I guess God has instored another one who is a lot better and more compatible than I ever thought… I guess I’ve unloaded a lot drama here… senxa na po…I’m apt to be emotional man gud… On the day of our departure, it’s unavoidable to be sad… am gonna miss some of my friends… most esp. hershey…whaaatt???..hehehe… am gonna miss the fun because school’s back again… grrr… Another thing, I hate the signs coz it’s working… wahahaha…I dont want to expect much of the impossible…

Nweiz…yehey… the next PYC will be in Inopacan… duol na lang… ahahaha… and am really looking forward to attend another spectacular get together again… and maybe, to see him the second time around…ahehehe…=]

We just recently had our 14th sectoral assembly ( south sector B) last may 2-3, 2008 at Bato National High School in Bato, Leyte. I already anticipated new faces, challenges and experiences…yeah!!!…

The scorching heat of the sun and some unfavorable conditions didn’t stop us from getting there…woohoohooh!!!…It was a remarkable event indeed for all of us I suppose because it was a fun-filled and jam-packed day naman…It really made me feel that it’s soo good to be _^^young^^_ because for me, being young means  having a lot of enthusiasm and wild adventures… the energy never ceases and smiles would never turn out as frowns inspite of trials…I learned a lot of teachings that nourished my soul and hardships that made me strong and mature enough to handle responsiblilities step by step…I met a lot of people and made friends with them… I’ll never forget the day that I participated in the essay writing event. That was last May 2, friday, 2:30 pm…( drama na naman ito!)… During that time, I really tried to control my fears and calm down because actually, I was totally shaking inside since I was not prepared. I only relied on stocked knowledge and my fake confidence…hehehe. I was really doubting that time and I’m sooo afraid because I’m soo scared to fail my delegation who were counting on me…(naxxz naman…), but just to be clear, I’m really really afraid of failures… I really prayed and concentrated further. These are the only options I know…The following day I was really anxious to hear the results and damn I shouted and jumped like crazy out of extreme joy when I heard my delegation won…yeah yeah yeah!!!…warm congratulations fired me up inspite of the freezing and hostile rain…and I do lift up my success to Him… I’ll never forget those times when we slept at the lobbies of the school, those non-functioning bathrooms, the scarcity of water, muddy pathways and the early wake-up call…hehehe and it really jolted all of us from our comfort zones but I consider those as blessings man pud that’s why I really feel so blest…Very exhausting but what can I do, I really love challenges…jowk…but partly true… I’ll never forget when we praised the Lord in the falling rain. It was very solemn and sentimental…but during the awarding…hahahaiii… nagkiat na mi’ng tanan…I’ll really miss the sinangag ( fried rice) and sweetened bulinao…(am I ryt?) that we had for breakfast…hahaha… first time to eat those but it left an unforgetable and lasting sensation on my tastebuds…wat?… basta am gonna try it at home… All of us left the venue totally soaked up with rain water… and to be honest, perting tugnawa jud kaau to pero sige sige lang, padayun lang ang sablig2…hehehe… Another thing, I was just wondering why the rain never stopped pouring in that day…maybe that was a blessing from God… I’m still pondering at the concealed message out of that rainy event… maybe I can figure it out one day… I don’t know…

Even if I already knew the discomforts that lie ahead in every conference… I would be 100.1% willing to attend because I don’t know…Maybe the fact that I know that I can learn and experience something new for my goodness sake and for some other personal reasons that I can’t share with you…u know nah…di bitaw…jowk ra to ha?…hehehe

I really hope to see u guyszz there next time…=]